I love to write poems about you

I love to write poems about you
The way I love sports
They push me, they pull me
They make me dream dreams
Of open roads in which I'm running
In no particular direction
Just feeling my body be
In motion, one swift whoosh
Across time and space,
Moving in your direction,
Heart racing, a baptism of perspiration.
This is the chase, the poem perpetually written
Across the page and my heart.

Who you Don't see

I am the one who is left behind
Forgotten or excluded
I have many dreams and hopes
To be a poet maybe or even a novelist
To be a soldier
So people can see how strong I can be
Mentally and physically
But also to prove to myself I am not what I have made
myself believe I am
To have someone be proud of me is what I crave
To be the best and not to fail
I long to be happy and love what I do
I write to make that come true
I listen to music because it separates myself from what hurts
It sooths my broken existence
I am a bookworm
I could disappear into a book for days or even years
I’m not afraid to admit that
For if you laugh then that makes you a coward
Not me, which now I see

I hate myself sometimes but can also love myself
I love who I am but can be jealous of who I am not
I love to dream
For that is when I can be myself and
not worry about other people’s judgments
I love to write poems about you
And show the world how much you mean to me
I hate it when I stare at an empty page and see what I have not accomplished
I worry too much
People laugh at me for that

I try my hardest to show people who I am
Who the real me is
But people don’t accept
Which puts me right back to the starting line
I reach out
Try to step out of my comfort zone
People just shove me right back
Which makes me trust less and less the people around me
Occasionally I open up and tell people things about me
But they look at me like I am crazy and weird
That’s why I don’t tell anyone who I really am
What my heart desires
Who it desires
What my talents are
Some see them for you are listening to one of them
Some aren’t listening
I am very sensitive to things
I get hurt a lot because of it
I am a very passionate person
I have a big heart
Which I would love for you to see
But I am too scared
Because I have been mistreated and broken
to many times

Sports is who I am
It pushes me and pulls me
It hurts and it feels amazing
But I can always depend on it
And never be disappointed
I can show it who I am
And it can never laugh nor judge
For it is what I am best at
So I never have to worry about building that image
For I already have it
I just have to work hard to keep it that way
Did I tell you that I am addicted to adrenaline?
That I love the feeling of my heart racing and my palms sweating
My legs feeling out of control
This is who I am
Nothing less

A Villanelle For You

Do not shed a tear,
It may seem like the end is close
But you have no need to worry dear

There are many people with similar fears
Who only see the thorn of the rose
Do not shed a tear

Though your past is sharp as a spear
And you see your world full of ghosts
You have no need to worry dear

Though it must appear
As if you will always feel this low
Do not shed a tear

Every black cloud might look closer then near
And you find yourself always walking on tiptoes,
But you have no need to worry dear

The sky will soon clear
And the glacier of your heart will melt and flow
Do not shed a tear
You have no need to worry dear